Today’s TBT post is in honor of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week.
“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” -Plato
I’d like to start with a disclaimer: I am not a dietician, a doctor, or a therapist, and I do not have the expertise or authority to provide professional advice on the following subject. I do, however, have personal experience, and in ways, I feel that for so many others confronting similar issues, these personal experiences hold equal to professional training.
I had an eating disorder. More specifically, I had several. For 10 years of my life, I cycled through various types of disordered eating methods [Side Rant: technically I am classified as Other Specified Feeding or Eating Disorder (OSFED) because I don’t meet the very specific criteria of eating disorder categories; however, telling people I have an ‘other specified feeding disorder’ makes me feel like an animal that just has a difficult time controlling what she eats. It’s a completely invalidating name for a condition, in my opinion, which is why it is simply easier for me to say I had an eating disorder]. My battle with food started in high school when I would restrict my calories and eat as little as possible. In college, I gained the “freshmen 15” and then some, but also discovered I had the ability to make myself throw up. That led to binging and purging, sometimes several times a day. (more…)